Yes. Absolutely. I realized that right quick and I gave up. Oh boy. I'm going out playing with different groups and things like that, sitting in. As far as being a trumpet player, I was always playing as a lead trumpet player. I wasn't a soloist in big bands, I was a lead player. And every big band I played from Chic Webb, Sam Wooding, everybody, lead.  Because no one wanted to play lead. The trumpet players didn't want to play lead when I first came around. They didn't want to leave, even from the Preservation Hall band they didn't want to play the lead. They wanted to solo. Everybody wanted to solo. So I made up my mind that I was going to be a good lead trumpet player. And I think I did, all this time. And after that, after Cab broke up and I went to the Louis Aladdin band, that was one of the best things I did for my health, because I was beginning to get powerful. I got real powerful just playing solos. I had my, you know I could stop, but in a Latin band you don't have to stop you just keep going and going and going, and that gave me a lot of power. That and playing lead trumpet gave me a lot of power. And so, and right now I think I play too loud. But I can calm down. I learned how to do that too. But I mean sometimes I can't help myself. I'll play a solo and make it sound nice and hit all over the top. But that's surprising to me because of my age. I had no idea that I would ever be a jazz player, but I wanted to do it and I just did it. And after playing all the lead I started looking back to the things I learned with Sam Wooding and Louis, in the New Orleans music, that's what I did. And I went back to that, and I started doing it, very slowly, people gave me hell just trying to play jazz when I was playing jazz -- from the musicians. People that I know said "what are you trying to do? You can't play. " And I couldn't. It took a long time, long, long time, because I went back to when I was learning things. And one day I got up and I went to Nice, France for the festival. And I took our quartet. And I think that helped, better than sitting in with some other group. And the people came in there and every section of the press, and everybody was listening to our quartet. And it made me feel good. And I started to play and I just let everything out, and I forgot about my, what do you call it ...