No. I was awake before I went to Africa. Somebody just -- my manager in Amsterdam gave me a book that explained slavery in Africa. It was written by a woman from Guadelupe. She said those were her people over there. Secu. Is that the name of it? Secu. Segu. No, I didn't go there for enlightenment. I had a chance to go and to meet some of my family, some of the people who I came from, but I don't feel any more partial to Africa than I do to Europe or any place else anymore, you know. They don't deserve anything just because they're Africans. They have got to get down and -- you know what I'm saying? Yeah. There's nobody special here. You have to be somebody if you're going to live on this planet and your ancestors can be great, but if you do not emulate them and if you don't, you're nobody. Your tears are no different than anybody else's. I lost that feeling partial to somebody. I don't and I don't blame anybody for the tragedy of my life or --